“If you don’t recognize me, you have many scars on your head”However, germination is smiling and blossoming, and the belly is getting bigger and bigger.”Recently, Taiyi’s 10000 kg growth stage has been played repeatedly on my NetEase Cloud. I feel like it really needs to be suppressed by NetEase Cloud again. It’s also because I watched the 10000 kg growth stage played by Song Yaxuan, Ding Chengxin, and the original singing girl, and it’s difficult to get out of this song. The sadness and repression of the lyrics and melody are like a drum weighing a thousand pounds, pounding and pounding repeatedly in my heart, but they cannot rival the cruel reality behind the song.
Girl is a term that sounds beautiful, but beauty is often mentioned alongside vulnerability. It is said that Taiyi’s creation was brought up with a heavy load of 10000 pounds because of the movie “Suyuan”. People who have seen that movie probably don’t want to recall the plot that makes people feel oppressive and angry again. What makes people feel even more heartbroken is that “this movie is based on real events.”. Suyuan was only eight years old when she was attacked. In the movie, Suyuan said, “That uncle wanted me to hold an umbrella for him, and I wanted to leave, but I still wanted to help him. I thought I should hold an umbrella for the rainy uncle. So I held it for him, but people said it was my fault, and no one praised me.” The kind child wanted to hold an umbrella for the rainy uncle, but in exchange for a nightmare that would ruin his life. She has done nothing wrong, and she is the biggest victim of this tragedy. However, in addition to physical and psychological injuries, her future life may also be accompanied by the guidance of others. Isn’t the only mistake she made the kindness that was born in the rain?
Recently, I learned from the news that the prisoner in the Suyuan case is about to be released from prison. This year, Suyuan, as Suyuan’s mother said in the movie, “Do you know how old our children will be after 12 years, 12 years?” Suyuan is 20 years old this year. Reality is often the cruelest because it’s real, because even if you can’t empathize with it, it feels cold and piercing. The person who committed a heinous crime can immediately see the light of day again, while the victim who has been greatly injured has to carry the indelible pain and walk through his life.
“Goddamn it, forgive the devil
Chipping teeth, cowardice and loneliness
Why don’t you ask me
Humans, intentionally
“Why choose me without bias?”
Sadly, in reality, there is more than one Suyuan and more than one Fang Siqi. Suyuan and Fang Siqi always appear, and there are always eye-catching “victim guilt theories” in the comments on such events. Not to be angry at the criminal’s brute behavior, but to judge maliciously with a cool and aloof attitude of a bystander: flies don’t bite seamless eggs, don’t wear skirts, how come someone else didn’t have an accident and you had an accident… Wearing a skirt isn’t her fault, being stared at by bad people isn’t her fault, growing bright isn’t even her fault, she didn’t do anything wrong, even didn’t have the opportunity to grow up well, it’s those disgusting bad people who are wrong. “Countless Fang Siqi has died, and countless Li Guohua is still alive.” We don’t know how many girls have chosen to end their lives because they have endured such a reckless disaster, nor do we know how many girls have suffered from depression and lived in endless darkness as a result. The perpetrator’s misdeeds can be commuted for reasons such as mental state or confusion, but the various experiences suffered by the victim cannot be changed in any way.
“After a few years, she still pointed around
Never thought that the hardest thing is to go back to the past
Thought my playmate would hug me for warmth and comfort
“Finally, I learned to separate from what I depended on.”
After experiencing aggression, many children still have to endure continuous “chain injuries.”. In real life, when something like this happens and is known to others, it is inevitable that it will become gossip after lunch or even gossip. Even if others harbor some sympathy and heartache, it is difficult to comment on the inner thoughts that do not occur in their own homes and are held aloof. “What is even sadder is that sometimes their closest relatives, because they feel humiliated, lightly say, ‘Let this matter rot in their stomachs.'”. “At their most innocent age, they suffer the most brutal injuries. No one can heal these children, they can only lick their wounds and learn to heal themselves.”.
I always thought that such things were probably rare, one in ten thousand or even less, but after carefully understanding them, I realized that what we knew was just the tip of the iceberg. On the topic of obscenity or sexual assault, there are many people sharing their childhood and adolescent experiences, whether they were mild or severe. Some people grow up feeling relieved, while others have been followed by these shadows and darkest memories, growing up with such an unspeakable secret burden and becoming a lifelong scar. Some people use their childhood to heal their entire lives, while others use their entire lives to heal their childhood. How many people who experienced nightmares in their childhood can forget all this and go through their entire lives? It is difficult to know, but we also hope that even if we grow up with a weight of 10000 pounds, we should learn to slowly unload the weight on our bodies, and unload more and more. Even if we still bear a thousand pounds in the end, we can occasionally take a breather in the gaps of life.
