Some people say that the person who listens to it is lonely, like a blue whale in the deep sea, groaning at the unknown 52 hertz. And I’m increasingly falling in love with listening to aftershocks.This is a aimless love, not about musicians, not about albums. I am like an ostrich, indulging myself forcefully in the crazy drum beats of backshaking; I am like a big fish again, allowing myself to swim heartily in the strings of the back sway and static injury; Like a director, I also forcefully blend what I have seen, heard, and felt about the world with the lingering atmosphere in my ears.
In my thirties, I fell in love with listening to backshaking, like a plane crashed into the sea. I fell from an altitude of 80000 feet into the sea, and when I emerged from the water, my eyes were blank, my limbs were stretched out, and I lay on my back in the endless blue sea. Around me, there were whales squirting, sharks watching, and dolphins singing loudly. However, all this has become irrelevant to me. I have been abandoned by the world.
Having said so much, perhaps you would think that I would tell the story of Houyao and me. But in fact, what I want to say is that now I love to listen and shake back, like silently licking my scars behind the mundane daily life, no longer making noise, no longer venting.
The world, after so many years, is still so noisy and impetuous, with countries competing against each other, and people competing against each other. Everyone is still so sensitive, so jealous, so foolish. Fear of others’ words, worry about others’ words, and worry about their own lives.
More and more children, fewer and fewer teenagers, have become more and more uninteresting adults. “It is not a shameful life to spend all one’s life running around for a house, car, famous watches, shoes, rent, water, and electricity, but it is definitely not an honorable life because it is the most basic instinct of a human being.”. Everyone gradually lost their bright smiles and bright eyes, and all day long, they fretted on the congested Third Ring Road, cursing for not paying their salaries on time. Drive out, single or double limit numbers, no parking space. Children go to school, queue up all night, draw numbers and draw lots. When people reach middle age, their health collapses and they are forced to maintain health.
It seems that this is the life that humans have established. It seems that this is the ultimate meaning of happiness. It seems that this is the reason why I am incompatible with this society.
I don’t know when I started suffering from depression, and a decade of insomnia has left me exhausted. Some people say, go see a psychologist! The person who said this must have not been deeply exposed to this society, and must also be ignorant of depression. Yes, there are indeed many mental rehabilitation hospitals in this society. However, how many real psychologists are there in this society? With just a bit of exam oriented education and the salary structure of this society, there is almost no such thing as a truly excellent psychologist.
Maybe someone will contradict me again, but I dare to say so. If I’m wrong, please come and help me with this article by an excellent and genuine psychologist. I believe not.
