“The fish bone stuck in my throat, but I still love eating fish. The chili peppers were so hot that I once suspected life, but I also wanted to be accompanied by chili peppers. I had been bitten by cats and dogs, but it couldn’t stop my love for animals. You’re thousands of miles away from me, but if you need it, I’m still willing to travel all over the mountains for you.”After graduation, I worked in a strange city and seemed to have nothing to do except occasionally listening to music in my spare time at night.
“I am a Pisces boy, born with some emotional feelings, and I can imagine countless plots for each song.”.
Especially when a person is in the dead of night, certain songs seem to become sleeping pills that can accompany them to sleep.
The first time I listened to “Ruyan”, I can’t remember when it was. Ah Xin’s voice meandered through the tape, accompanied by a simple melody, telling the story of life.
For me, if given the opportunity, the era I most want to return to is my junior high school, where there is my first love, my good friends, and the youth that I have never been able to return to.
“I sat in front of the bed, looking out the window and remembering the sky. Life is a magnificent illusion, time is a thief, stealing everything.”
I still remember that it was one day after I graduated from junior high school and the last day I saw her. Since that day, there has been no intersection between my life and hers.
It is said that if you like someone, you must go to see them, because that way, you will like them even more.
However, what reason can I come up with to persuade myself?
“Are you still thinking about her?”
One day, I shared this song again in my circle of friends. My friend came to me and opened the door to meet the mountain path.
Was it detected?
“Yes, how could I possibly forget it?” I replied noncommittally
“Then why don’t you go see her?” he asked.
“I don’t know how to answer, am I afraid? I don’t really want to tell the truth, but I simply replied, ‘It’s good to keep it this way.'”
This seems to be the most cowardly answer.
“I know what you’re worried about, but… don’t worry, it’s yours, it’s yours.”
He is my close friend, called Ayang. He knows all my love stories, and my fear is nothing more than the fear of breaking her connection again.
At least like now, it’s good to occasionally talk to her on WeChat and check her updates on Weibo. I’m afraid I’ll lose his message again due to recklessness.
I don’t know when it has become my habit to listen to this song before going to bed.
The time of a song is like walking through the vicissitudes of life and death, listening to the blooming and withering of prosperity, seeing the sunny and round sky, and in a flash, walking through the impermanence of life.
I have always liked a saying: beauty is beautiful because it always breaks in the end.
Once upon a time, I never understood the meaning of this sentence. How could a broken one be beautiful?
But when I really understood this sentence, I realized that trying to grasp it again had become unreachable.
It’s already past twelve o’clock, and before I knew it, I didn’t even take off my earphones to sleep, which surprised me a bit. At this time of the day, after listening to a song, I’m ready to sleep.
Is it really like someone said, night and song, there is always one that makes you unable to sleep.
In fact, if time really lasts forever, I hope I can be woken up by my teacher from my desk on a summer afternoon with cicadas chirping.
I looked around with a puzzled expression, ignoring the teacher’s scolding in my ear.
I saw familiar scenes, familiar mathematical symbols on the blackboard, the familiar smell of air in the scorching summer, and the familiar smile on your face next to me.
